Longing to go back to the “Tockeet”

The universe is teeming with countless planets. The God is in charge of all. God gives chance to all the creatures to spend at least a life in every planet. Right now I am spending a life in the Earth. Before this, I was given a chance to lead a lovely life in the planet Tockeet, which literally means something like the merge of word ‘happiness’ and ‘laziness’. The planet is located at the northern edge of the galaxy lying next to Andromeda. This is certainly not the best planet, but, I remember well, everything worked differently there, comparing to the Earth. There, God communicated directly to us. God was not mystified as in the earth. God used to stand tall, distinct and roamed around valley after valley, country after country like “Gandalf “of the series “lord of the Rings”.

The most interesting feature of the planet was that, there was nothing called”the time” in the planet. There was no fixed time for anything. We could do anything we liked and anytime. It would rain and shine according to our will. There were flowers, clouds, haze, rainbows, mist, wind and everything as we want them. There was not much work. We always sleep in big grass, feed on cotton candies, laugh aloud, talk, trek, and paint. We didn’t have to do any job .Everybody was equally happy and equally sad. We used to spend time sleeping, talking, singing, playing roaming and eating lazily. We had limited desire and had power to control our desire, we had little means and little choice and little ends. We were taught in group, we were taught about the other planets.

One day, when I was taught about the planet Earth, I felt a strong desire to go to that planet. We were taught that, the Earth was the planet of Achievers, planet of Hard workers .I was remained agape in awe when I learnt that the people of the Earth were in the verge of conquering the planet and ruling all the planet of the universe. God was our master; he told us all about the landscape and resources of the earth. I learnt that some of the denizens of “our planet” had already been to the earth and had accomplished a remarkable life in the earth.  I suddenly longed to be there in the planet earth because, I could sing, dance, weave stories and make beautiful pictures and I thought it would not be hard for me to earn a living in the earth with those attributes.

It was my mum who resisted my decision to go to the earth. She said that the Eartherners were egoistic, they run their life according to “time”, and there were maladies and malice. But I convinced her that I would put up with everything. My father encouraged my bold decision and taught me few things about the earth that did not exist in our planet like “success”, ”management”, ”aim”. The god also did not want me to go to the earth because I was a lovely person and too naïve to run according to the rules of the earth. The God told me that the Eartherners had no respect for our planet and they called the planet “Tockeet”to be the “Land of Invalids”.It was saddening to know that the Eartherners knew us as “lazy, stupid, slow and dumb” people.

But still, I was not daunted and I insisted the God to take me to the earth. God offered me the choices, whether I wanted to be a plant or animal, I chose to be able to sing loud and walk faster. I chose to be a woman because I wanted to look fairer and produce young ones. I chose to born in a poor country and in a poor family because I didn’t understand God’s question “want to be a rich or a poor?” (Everyone was equal in Tockeet you know), and I chose the word “poor” for its strong vowel and easy pronunciation.

That’s how I came to the earth and to Nepal. Since I was originally from the planet ‘Tockeet’, I had some great ‘feeling’ and ‘expressing’ capacity, so, from the small place of my birth, I was taken to Kathmandu (big place). My Mum and Dad (my original mum and dad accompanied me to the earth and here also they are my mum and dad) always reminded me that I am in the planet Earth, so I must live like an Eartherner .Though they always lived like “tocketeers”, they wanted me to do everything in “earthern” way. For many years, I pretended to be a real”eartherner” and tried to “manage” things and be “successful”. Life became hard. I started feeling uneasy. Being a original”Tocketeer”,I always wanted to sleep,eat,talk,sing,dance,paint and be lazy and be happy. But to be eligible for the earth, one must “study hard”, “work Hard”, and “have clear aim”, “respect time “and “Mange things”. Slowly I started withdrawing. I started loathing earthly things because here people did not care for “self-happiness” but run after money. Here, people maintained ‘a family’ even if they are not happy. Here, People could not marry if they do not have money. ”Sadness “was encouraged in the name of “discipline”.

Now, I have realized that I should not have insisted to come to the earth. If I am not happy with “studying in college” and I decide to quit, people blackmail me by showing a dark future. If I am not happy with “doing a job” and decide to quit, people blackmail me by naming it as my ‘inability to recognize my inner talent’. Now I have recognized my true self that actually belongs to the world of Invalids. In the earth, Laziness is a very negative word. But I love being lazy the most. No..no no…..Dear God…I m fed up with all these Earthly rules and regulations…I don’t want to be successful…I don’t want to earn money…I don’t want to achieve….I just want to be lazy, I want to be fat, I want to eat a lot, sleep 22 hours and spend my time lazily talking and singing and dancing and reading and writing…..Please God…Rescue me. I want to go back to my original planet, the planet of invalid and lazy people.